Christmas, a time filled with family, friends, hope and laughter…I love the seasons undeniable beauty, with light brightening the streets, decorations filling the fireplace and of course the warmth of sitting by the fire with those I love.
But also as a sufferer of mental illness there is the added pressure associatiated with this special day. There is no “off switch” for Anorexia, Depression Anxiety or any other Mental Illness so just like any other day it is unpredictable how much it will effect you.
Recovering from an Eating Disorder at Christmas can be difficult but this year unlike the previous 10 years I’m going to try to not let food become the focus. Instead i will think about positives and be mindful to other activities that are important.
This applies to every one – that if you feel anxious or concerned around ANY situation in the day try not to let them become the negative focus. Sometimes it can be helpful to distract yourself from negative thoughts and in my experience I have found that taking a walk with a family member or friend helps to keep your mind of things, particularly if I’m feeling guilty or panicked. Some other alternatives some people have used is playing a board game, calling a friend or relative, listening to music or focusing on light conversation as positive alternatives.
It can be very easy to become completely enveloped during Christmas, which can magnify the inwards feeling your thoughts can give you and leave you feeling excluded from your surroundings. This year make sure you maintain contact with the outside world and don’t get too drawn into a vortex!
Fight your fears head on and have the magical Christmas you all deserve…
“The blessings of peace, the beauty of hope, the spirit of love, the comfort of faith… may this be your gifts this christmas”
Well, I’m finally back after nearly three whole months without a blog update…
And if I’m honest I wish I had a good explanation for my absence but it’s down to poor time management and making the most of every opportunity.
So what have I been up to?
- Well as of friday I have been discharged from CAMHS (child and adolescent mental health service) and transitioned to the Adult eating disorder team and CMHT (community mental health team)- which I will talk about in a later post.
- I’ve been on the interview panel for CAMHS
- Celebrated my 18th birthday by going out with my family, seeing bastille in the o2 thanks to my sister, having a house PARTY (which I never imagined would happen earlier this year) and just spending it with those closest to me.
- I’ve been on my first night out, which after a lot of previous anxiety around situations involving any type of socialising or alcohol I can well an truely say I have fought through the worst of it and am now ACTUALLY ENJOYING MYSELF.
- I have bought myself a little red car, ran the battery flat, had to be jump started at school and nearly drove down the motorway the wrong way. (pretty successful in my eyes)
- Visited my Best Friend at Uni and stayed with her in Birmingham.
- I’ve done a week of work experience at the Hospital in the cardiology department, watched a operation, and visited the children’s ward I was once on.
- And now I have completed my first term of school, missing zero days and so far achieving my goal of making this year count. I have helped out in a place for students to go who struggle with the playground at break and lunch – which I really enjoy because it gives me the chance to use some of my experiences to help others.
The last few months have been filled with a lot of wonderful moments and considering I have significantly struggled with some aspects of my mental health recently I can well and truly say despite of it I have tried my best to keep going and participate in everything I possibly could.
“I think suffering from mental health has made me realise that good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience and the worst days give you a reason to get better”